哈！

It's funny, you know,



when you deeply miss something or someone,

everything seems...far away,

but at the same time, they are close.



What far away are tinngs or people that you think they should be on your side,

what near side by you are those that you never thought of in your daily life.



Funny.



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After two bottles of wine,

I should be satisfing.



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Now, I try to surf the internet,

but don't know where I can go,



I log onto the MSN,

and no one is there.



It should be a peaceful night,

but every voice tells me in my head that,



go to bed or, eat shit.



Go to bed, and there will be shit waiting for you,

eat shit, and the bed is still full of shit waiting for you.



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Shit!



What a choice!



Really shit.



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So I realize something,

I need some fresh air, to fresh my mind.



Fresh enough without loniness,

fresh without alchoel,

fresh without being asked,



what the hell are you doing?



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Rediculous.



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Whatever.



Here is the deal.



I tell you my secrets,

and after that,

you put a knife into my heart.



Would you?



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If not,



Hug me instead.



Oh, of course, if you want to.



(No cranky requirements. sure...)



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My brother said that I'm too radical,

I think he is right.



I think that I need some change.



So, I suck,



I'm a sucking person, and



suck to much melamine.



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Shouhhhhh.....

too much melamine......